Peek a Boo, I see you!

I have started to rack up quite a collections for so early on in a pregnancy. It's cool though because this kiddo can see itself from a gestational sac. More embarrassing that a bear skin rug picture? We'll see when they start dating ;)

3/26 - So this first one I "stole" (took a picture with my iphone after the doctor left). There was a mixture of wonder and fear going on when I took this. The doctor had just gotten through say "well it could be a pregnancy, or a miscarriage" this worried me and it sucked. I wanted to be excited and she ruined it for me. Oh well... I have a new OB now and lots of beautiful ultrasounds of a healthy growing baby... Yay!

4/9 - Second one, same doc. Here we see the yolk sac (and I think) the beginnings of the fetal pole. The doc was (a little) better and I had Jerry with me, I think she could clearly see how incredibly excited we were to see development. She said, "you're still not out of the woods yet" but she stfu when I said "well it's some development and that's great as far as I'm concerned"

4/19 - New (awesome) Doc and Baby is fully out of hiding!!! Wow at this point we were just shocked and crazy excited! Only 10 days since the "yolk sac" and there is a beautiful perfect fully formed one inch baby. arm and leg buds out and I swear to god it's smiling at us and dancing no less (Jerry took a little video I'll have to post someday when I figure that out). Happy, happy day!

5/13 - Appt. with NT nuchal translucency specialist I am requested to see at 12 weeks. Appt. was emotional for me, Jerry really helped me through this. It's so hard when they want to test you for disorders. I mean, it's good to be prepared, but does that mean we would love it any less? No. So some of it just seems like an exercise in futility and another reason to worry. Luckily we made out like bandits and had the best results you could possibly ask for. But then are asked "do you want the second round so you can have a 90% read?". "No thanks", I'm sure there are going to be plenty of chances for poking and prodding later. For those of you that have been through it maybe you can understand. At this point just want to enjoy this pregnancy and not spend time worrying about things that are god's plan anyway ;)

 Bye for now! Next time you see me we'll be seeing if I'll be playing team peen or team hoo-ha ;)









It's so nice to be through the first trimester. I feel a lot more relaxed and am getting excited more and more everyday having a happy pregnancy while waiting for our little one to arrive...

Happy Mother's Day!!!

It's hard to put into words what you have given me.
A beautiful childhood full of wonder and innocence.
The love and support to give me courage through all those hard times.
A huge focus on being my own person and not listening to naysayers.
And a million other things that I can only hope I give my to this new child in my belly.

I love you Mom!

An Unexpected Beginning

ser·en·dip·i·ty
-noun
1. an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.
2. good fortune; luck.

I have often felt that everything in my life is rushing towards a certain path, and for years I have been genuinely confused about my true purpose. Not to say I felt empty before, just not completely full. I have a loving family that has taught me well. A wonderful husband who understands me. A challenging career that is so simultaneously frustrating and rewarding I can't imagine doing anything else.

But being a mom? I had been told by a few doctors that because of some rather obvious fertility issues it was going to be a challenge at best. Now that it's actually happening, I'll be honest, it broke my heart. We had made a decision, we weren't financially ready, so to push the issue now felt irresponsible at best. I know I'm going to sound like a bit of drama queen here but I still felt like my days, er, my eggs were going to be numbered in the near future, so for all intensive purposes, I put my hopes for a child had been put in the (way) back of the drawer for quite a while. I never would have guessed that this thing I had always wanted so badly would have happened so quickly after getting married. Well on a special Friday night in the middle of March, it actually happened.

I felt like crap all day. I was incredibly worn down (I thought from working hard). I went to get a facial (a thing I never treat myself to anymore) just to unwind, and old coworker of mine, Rosa, was the esthetician and said "you must be pregnant squishy" (she was a BIG fan of Finding Nemo when we worked together)

So I went home and took a test, I had taken a few dozen in my life and never saw anything special in the window. Normally I would stay in the bathroom just staring... Staring in vain, this time for some reason, I was totally uninterested after 20 seconds. I set it on the bathtub and went on about my day...

Jerry got home, we had dinner, got ready for bed and there we are... both brushing our teeth and I look down and see something I had never seen before.

















I am not the fainting type, but I did fall to the ground. It kinda went something like this:

Me: "Oh my god, Jerry look!"
Jerry: "Oh my god"
Me: "Oh my god"
(this went on for another round or two)
Me: Is this... are you... happy?"
Jerry: Hell Yes! Are you?
Me: (through tears) ARE YOU KIDDING? SO HAPPY!!!

Then we pulled ourselves up off the floor of our ultra tiny bathroom, got in bed and proceeded to not get any sleep at all, talking about how the rest of our lives had been changed in an instant.

So there you have it. The beginning of this blog. A blessing that came out of the blue. Serendipity.

So what you ask could be better than that? The beginning of the rest of our lives and the continuation of this crazy journey, of course!