For as many classes as we went to. It really is true. I don't. No one that has not previously given birth does. And perhaps I shouldn't. Don't get me wrong, it was lots of fun learning good positions and fun stuff like stations, effacement and dilation. But.
I have learned after a 1/3 of a century on this planet. I over think stuff. I know some of you are thinking to yourself "You, Heather? Never!" But it's true... I really really do, which is why I am starting repression therapy on myself... Somewhere in the deep reaches of my medulla oblangata will be the necessary technical information needed to process the information... But as for the getting it done, I am going to try something I haven't for a while.
Living in the moment. And faith. I figure if I can just stay in that place long enough to get her out all will be well.... I also am fairly certain I will be blessed with that wonderful experience all mothers tell me about... Forgetting the pain.
See I'm not one of those women that thinks they can escape it, with drugs yeah... sure. But mind over matter? Not me. I am fairly certain it will be excruciating at times and I will beg for drugs, cry, and generally be a huge PITA.
But in this one circumstance, it's O.K. I have done all those things before (except begging for drugs) and had far less reason to. It's not like I'm super excited about the pain, but I am convinced it has it's purpose... To get her out. So, with reason and purpose I will live with it until it's over and then I will have the best reward ever. That's my plan and I'm stickin' to it ;)
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